I created this space as a place for me to share these loves and passions of mine; what makes my heart beat and colors my days alive. My hope is that this blog is filled with the realness, the rawness, the beautiful, the heart stirring, gut aching, shakey nervousness, slow and pensive, wild and thriving thoughts and moments of LIFE.


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No child is actually ours.

This is us. Well… this was us. Ty, Alex, The Babe, and our rescue Beagle Nollie. Before foster care we didn’t have any biological children. We had never parented. We have no clue what we were doing. We said yes anyway. We often got asked (and still get asked, just not as much) if we […]

May 6, 2019

Foster Care, Life

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“I couldn’t do it”

“I couldn’t do it; it would be too hard to say goodbye.” I thought it several times. I’ve heard it said to me over and over. We actually experienced saying goodbye 7.5 months ago. After close to 11 months of loving the boy who made us parents, we were given 3 days notice of him […]

May 2, 2019

Foster Care, Life

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Ways I’ve used oils lately…

Ways I’ve used essential oils in the last few months include: -Supporting my immune system-Relieving pressure in my head-Supporting my body as we went through miscarriage-Supporting my emotions as we went through miscarriage + saying goodbye to our foster baby-Creating an environment that supported sleep because it’s hard to sleep when you’re grieving-Calming and grounding […]

May 1, 2019


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One Year Ago.

I cannot believe this was a year ago. I remember the warmth of the sun on our skin. I remember how freaking happy this boy was, even though we pushed bedtime a little just to get these images to celebrate 6 months of him being alive. I remember how excited I was to show his […]

April 30, 2019

Foster Care, Life

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I will praise You, Lord, among the peoples…

I went the first 18 years of my life not knowing Jesus. I did all the things you’d expect a high schooler to do. But something just didn’t feel right. I felt like I was made for something more. I learned it was to be in relationship with Him senior year of HS. It wasn’t […]

April 28, 2019


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Digging deep into the fears

Today at counseling we dug deep into the fears that surround saying yes to foster care again. We dug into the conflicting lies that tell me that saying yes would mean I love this boy in the photo less. That I’m “replacing” him. The ones that simultaneously say I could never give another child the […]

April 25, 2019

Foster Care, Life

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Instead it was hard to say no…

It’s been just over 7 months since the day we said goodbye to the boy who made us parents. Since that day our license has been “on hold” meaning we haven’t gotten any calls for placements. Until today. We got our first placement call since saying goodbye. I thought I would be scared to say […]

April 24, 2019

Foster Care, Life

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I don’t want to harbor bitterness

I never ever ever want to be the person whose heart fills with bitterness when I see friends announce their pregnancies or adoptions. Their blessings do not change my circumstances. And beyond that, my peace and joy and righteousness are not dependent on my circumstances. My circumstances should not diminish the absolute joy I have […]

April 23, 2019

Life, Pregnancy Loss

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I should be 21 weeks pregnant.

I should be 21 weeks pregnant.We should know if we were having a boy or a girl.Our nursery should be starting to take shape. But I’m not pregnant any more.And we won’t know our baby’s gender until Heaven.And the office we started to transform into this nursery has yet again been taken over by office […]

April 22, 2019

Life, Pregnancy Loss

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