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Dear Foster Mama who had to say goodbye

Dear Foster Mama who had to say goodbye, I am so sorry. Your pain is real. Your grief is real. Whether or not “we signed up for this” doesn’t negate the feelings. Remember that. Commit it to your heart. Don’t let the enemy’s lies tell you otherwise. Thank you for being willing to do one […]

July 8, 2019

Foster Care, Life

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Goodbyes & Guilt

I’ve shared pretty openly about our last few days together here, but I’ve never shared about the guilt I fight daily. We had 3 days between the call where we learned he would be leaving our home and the day that we dropped him off at another home. It has been close to 8 months, […]

May 10, 2019

Foster Care, Life

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When you get “the call”.

We got the call at 11:04am on November 8th. A 7 day old baby needed a safe place to stay. We weren’t supposed to be getting calls, but we got it anyway. I couldn’t imagine us saying no, though, so we said absolutely yes. Ty left work early, got diapers and formula on his way […]

May 8, 2019

Foster Care, Life

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No child is actually ours.

This is us. Well… this was us. Ty, Alex, The Babe, and our rescue Beagle Nollie. Before foster care we didn’t have any biological children. We had never parented. We have no clue what we were doing. We said yes anyway. We often got asked (and still get asked, just not as much) if we […]

May 6, 2019

Foster Care, Life

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“I couldn’t do it”

“I couldn’t do it; it would be too hard to say goodbye.” I thought it several times. I’ve heard it said to me over and over. We actually experienced saying goodbye 7.5 months ago. After close to 11 months of loving the boy who made us parents, we were given 3 days notice of him […]

May 2, 2019

Foster Care, Life

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One Year Ago.

I cannot believe this was a year ago. I remember the warmth of the sun on our skin. I remember how freaking happy this boy was, even though we pushed bedtime a little just to get these images to celebrate 6 months of him being alive. I remember how excited I was to show his […]

April 30, 2019

Foster Care, Life

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I will praise You, Lord, among the peoples…

I went the first 18 years of my life not knowing Jesus. I did all the things you’d expect a high schooler to do. But something just didn’t feel right. I felt like I was made for something more. I learned it was to be in relationship with Him senior year of HS. It wasn’t […]

April 28, 2019

Life

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Digging deep into the fears

Today at counseling we dug deep into the fears that surround saying yes to foster care again. We dug into the conflicting lies that tell me that saying yes would mean I love this boy in the photo less. That I’m “replacing” him. The ones that simultaneously say I could never give another child the […]

April 25, 2019

Foster Care, Life

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Instead it was hard to say no…

It’s been just over 7 months since the day we said goodbye to the boy who made us parents. Since that day our license has been “on hold” meaning we haven’t gotten any calls for placements. Until today. We got our first placement call since saying goodbye. I thought I would be scared to say […]

April 24, 2019

Foster Care, Life

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