I’ve shared pretty openly about our last few days together here, but I’ve never shared about the guilt I fight daily. We had 3 days between the call where we learned he would be leaving our home and the day that we dropped him off at another home. It has been close to 8 months, […]

We got the call at 11:04am on November 8th. A 7 day old baby needed a safe place to stay. We weren’t supposed to be getting calls, but we got it anyway. I couldn’t imagine us saying no, though, so we said absolutely yes. Ty left work early, got diapers and formula on his way […]

This is us. Well… this was us. Ty, Alex, The Babe, and our rescue Beagle Nollie. Before foster care we didn’t have any biological children. We had never parented. We have no clue what we were doing. We said yes anyway. We often got asked (and still get asked, just not as much) if we […]

“I couldn’t do it; it would be too hard to say goodbye.” I thought it several times. I’ve heard it said to me over and over. We actually experienced saying goodbye 7.5 months ago. After close to 11 months of loving the boy who made us parents, we were given 3 days notice of him […]

I cannot believe this was a year ago. I remember the warmth of the sun on our skin. I remember how freaking happy this boy was, even though we pushed bedtime a little just to get these images to celebrate 6 months of him being alive. I remember how excited I was to show his […]

I went the first 18 years of my life not knowing Jesus. I did all the things you’d expect a high schooler to do. But something just didn’t feel right. I felt like I was made for something more. I learned it was to be in relationship with Him senior year of HS. It wasn’t […]

Today at counseling we dug deep into the fears that surround saying yes to foster care again. We dug into the conflicting lies that tell me that saying yes would mean I love this boy in the photo less. That I’m “replacing” him. The ones that simultaneously say I could never give another child the […]

It’s been just over 7 months since the day we said goodbye to the boy who made us parents. Since that day our license has been “on hold” meaning we haven’t gotten any calls for placements. Until today. We got our first placement call since saying goodbye. I thought I would be scared to say […]

I never ever ever want to be the person whose heart fills with bitterness when I see friends announce their pregnancies or adoptions. Their blessings do not change my circumstances. And beyond that, my peace and joy and righteousness are not dependent on my circumstances. My circumstances should not diminish the absolute joy I have […]