Goodbyes & Guilt

May 10, 2019

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I’ve shared pretty openly about our last few days together here, but I’ve never shared about the guilt I fight daily. We had 3 days between the call where we learned he would be leaving our home and the day that we dropped him off at another home.

It has been close to 8 months, but I still relive the fact that I dropped this baby off at another home and never came back for him over and over. I think of how confused he must have been. How sad and hurt he must have been. How betrayed he must have felt.

It wasn’t my choice, and I know that and God reminds me of that often… but satan still tries to whisper to me that it doesn’t matter whether or not I had a choice, because in the end I was still the one who didn’t come back.

Gosh I’m so thankful that I don’t serve a God that makes me feel that way. A God that reminds me of truth. Who casts out those lies.

Goodbyes are freaking hard. There’s no way to spin it. I’ve seen him a handful of times since then and he seems to be thriving. Thank you Jesus for that. ♥️

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hey there, I'm Alex!

categories

Along with running multiple businesses, we’ve also stepped into the call of foster parenting, and it’s simultaneously been the heart-growing + heart-wrenching thing we’ve ever done. Welcome to where I share my heart about it all.

business

foster care

life

photography

wellness

popular posts

EOs every photographer needs

dear new foster mama

Our master bathroom refresh

ways to use stock photos for your biz

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